Hey there loves,
I normally don't do this kind of update post, probably because I'm unaccustomed to seeing such significant change in such a short amount of time.
When I wrote about the Full Moon in Capricorn, I felt like I needed to vent as much as I wanted to share what I was learning. I had mentioned before my frustration with a few of my coworkers and how all I wanted was for the situation to be resolved, in the way I thought was best of course.
Without realizing it, I had become more angry and frustrated at how I felt that I was being treated, and I stopped seeing the bigger picture. I got tunnel vision if you will, so naturally when those blinders came off, not only did I feel foolish and a bit embarrassed, I also wanted to make things right.
I had a conversation with one coworker about how it felt when we worked together, and I heard her out. Turns out that she felt much the same way that I did; passing off responsibility, not doing our far share of the work, and at the end of the day not being excited to work with the other person.
I took the opportunity to apologize and did my best to make sure that they knew that I would do my best to communicate more openly if I was having an off day or feeling behind, that I would try to make sure they knew I was there to help them if they needed it.
We agreed that if the cycle that has been infecting our work place was to stop, it had to start somewhere, so it was going to start with us.
A different coworker, whom I perceived to be the one responsible for all of the turmoil, started showing up more, started doing more, and appeared to be putting in more of an effort. My boss had asked me to give this person a second chance, and at first I was admittedly reluctant.
I'd given out second chances before and it had never ended well for me, and that was just my personal relationships. This was supposed to be a professional environment, why the hell were they given a second chance? I firmly believed, despite being told otherwise, that any one would be given this second chance if they were in this person's shoes. It felt like they were being special treatment for unknown reasons, and truth be told, I resented everyone who was involved.
In retrospect I can see where I did not do a good job of hiding my opinion even though I never voiced it. I was not sincere or genuine with this person, and I did not listen to the undertones or body language which always said more than the words that were spoken.
After writing about what Spirit revealed to me, it really hit home that I needed to not just see and recognize these people and the parts of them that I recognized, but that I needed to honor them and where they are at in their journey.
I needed to do this not just for myself, but by doing so, it could completely change the atmosphere and the energy in my workplace when I worked with them. As all of this was sinking in I told my guides, I told Spirit that I was not confident in my ability to do so overnight. I was unsure of how successful I would be right away, but that I would try and that I wouldn't keep myself closed off from them as I had been doing.
It's not two weeks later, and I am surprised at myself but I'm also proud. One year, two years ago, I don't know if I would have been able to turn around so completely. I'm going to work feeling lighter, feeling more confident in my position, I don't dread working with these people any more, and I genuinely spend time asking the Universe to hold them and send them love and support because in my heart I know that somehow it can and will manifest for them. Even if it manifests through me.
I no longer feel like I am being denied opportunities because I have been given the amazing chance to do other things. Like spending one day a week in a different department which isn't remotely related to the one I am in now. I am able to dedicate time to writing here, I've been able to finish a really exciting project that now is just waiting for the green light from Spirit to go onto the next step, I reached a place where I was comfortable creating an online temple space on Facebook where I can connect and share openly and others can do the same if they feel called to do so.
Don't get me wrong, the Full Moon in Capricorn was a tough one. I felt it BIG TIME. But now as we are transitioning into the New Moon in Leo, and we are heading into the harvest season, I am starting to look back on what I have been able to bring to life so far this year, and I feel amazing.
The work is not done, and there is still time to create, I feel the fiery energy of Leo beckoning me to breath life into more projects, to ignore the fear that tells me that somehow I am not good enough to do what I want to do. The lion in my roars with confidence because it knows, and I know better.
I will say though that with the completion of the project mentioned above, there is a sense of finality in a way. I knew that I wouldn't launch the project straight away, so now I'm sitting in a space with two different energies; the first being that I want to take a breath and soak up the fact that I have never even attempted something like this and now it's done, the second energy is that of the new moon in Leo wanting to get out there and create more stuff!
So, I am going to try an honor both energies, I will take time to be in stillness and gratitude and really honor the work that I have put into the project, and at the same time put my energy into other projects.
One such project is the Facebook group I mentioned before. If you are interested in joining, I fully encourage you to do so. We're still a fairly small community but you are welcome to it! I'll leave the link here with you, Shakti's Circle.
All right loves, time to go spend some time in that stillness.
Don't forget to live freely and love fiercely,
~Thealynn
©2013-2017 Thealynn Oceanna Rosewolf
Thursday, July 20, 2017
Monday, July 17, 2017
Project Lift Off
Hey loves,
I have something that I wanted to share with you all in the event that you have not heard about it already. Which may be the case since it is a fairly recent development.
This may come as a no surprise but I have been working on a new project, several in fact but when I started I wasn't sure how to get these projects into the world once they were finished. I was and am super excited to be tasked with these projects and to bring them to life, but the how was a bit fuzzy for me.
I've been practicing going into the stillness within where my higher self can communicate more clearly, and I asked, where and how am I going to share these projects. What can I do to help facilitate these ideas. The answer I got was not one I was expecting: Create a Facebook Group.
I was a bit stunned because you see groups all the time focusing on different things, why and how would my group be any different?
I sat on that answer for a time, but the longer I waited, the more my guides placed ideas in my mind. The more I found myself thinking about it in my spare time, and wondering the best ways to tap into the energy that I wanted the group to embody.
Then it hit me. I was trying to tap into Shakti, who is the embodiment of the Divine Feminine Creative Life Force.
The group would be full of Shakti, so thus, Shakti's Circle was born!
I have linked this group with my Facebook Page, Through the Secret Door by Thealynn with the intention that it's all connected.
So what is the purpose of Shakti's Circle?
Shakti's Circle is a sacred temple space where we honor Divine Source, Spirit, God, Goddess, Creator, however you identify with the ultimate power. This is a space intended for the community, a place to share your work, ask questions, start conversations, build relationships.
This is a space for all who seek fellowship, not just a sisterhood or a brotherhood; because at the end of the day it's going to take all of us. We need each other, we need to be partners in recreating this world, because this world needs us.
I invite every and anyone to join us in this space, I hope to see you there.
Much love to you all,
~Thealynn
©2013-2017 Thealynn Oceanna Rosewolf
I have something that I wanted to share with you all in the event that you have not heard about it already. Which may be the case since it is a fairly recent development.
This may come as a no surprise but I have been working on a new project, several in fact but when I started I wasn't sure how to get these projects into the world once they were finished. I was and am super excited to be tasked with these projects and to bring them to life, but the how was a bit fuzzy for me.
I've been practicing going into the stillness within where my higher self can communicate more clearly, and I asked, where and how am I going to share these projects. What can I do to help facilitate these ideas. The answer I got was not one I was expecting: Create a Facebook Group.
I was a bit stunned because you see groups all the time focusing on different things, why and how would my group be any different?
I sat on that answer for a time, but the longer I waited, the more my guides placed ideas in my mind. The more I found myself thinking about it in my spare time, and wondering the best ways to tap into the energy that I wanted the group to embody.
Then it hit me. I was trying to tap into Shakti, who is the embodiment of the Divine Feminine Creative Life Force.
The group would be full of Shakti, so thus, Shakti's Circle was born!
I have linked this group with my Facebook Page, Through the Secret Door by Thealynn with the intention that it's all connected.
So what is the purpose of Shakti's Circle?
Shakti's Circle is a sacred temple space where we honor Divine Source, Spirit, God, Goddess, Creator, however you identify with the ultimate power. This is a space intended for the community, a place to share your work, ask questions, start conversations, build relationships.
This is a space for all who seek fellowship, not just a sisterhood or a brotherhood; because at the end of the day it's going to take all of us. We need each other, we need to be partners in recreating this world, because this world needs us.
I invite every and anyone to join us in this space, I hope to see you there.
Much love to you all,
~Thealynn
©2013-2017 Thealynn Oceanna Rosewolf
Sunday, July 9, 2017
My Full Moon in Capricorn
Hey there loves,
How has this full moon been treating you? Have you been feeling it the last few days as the moon as reached her fullness?
As some of you might already know, I am a Capricorn (sun), so this full moon holds some very serious energy for me. And possibly for you too! Are you ready for it?
One of the things that I love the most when the moon is full, is that I feel like I have the opportunity to really clean off my energetic plate. I get to drop all the stuff that I've been carrying around for the last month that just needs to go. It's a good time to reset, re-energize, reevaluate. It's also a good time to be super honest with ourselves.
Something that I think gets glossed over during the Full Moon, is the opportunity to see things in our lives with a fresh perspective, a different lens depending on what sign the moon is in. In this case, it's Capricorn.
For those who are unfamiliar with Capricorn, this sign is ruled by Saturn which is considered the Father of the zodiac; just as the Moon is considered the Mother of the zodiac which rules the sign of Cancer. As these signs are opposite each other, there is a call for balance when these two meet.
Capricorn is considered the 'hard knocks' planet, as Saturn is also known as the Karma Keeper, it's no surprise that Capricorns often wind up settling all sorts of karmic debt (positive and negative) during their life time. Because of the masculine energy surrounding Capricorn, they are often described as structured, practical, goal oriented, focused, etc.
The other side of that coin however can be viewed as: rigid, strict, obsessive, workaholic, etc. Capricorns are known for being stubborn, rivaling other signs in the zodiac, because once they set their minds on something, it's nigh impossible to get them off course.
Capricorns can also suffer from tunnel vision and expect everyone to be on board with their plans and ideas, which isn't always practical or possible. When this doesn't happen, they can be come agitated and continue about their way, even if they do so alone. Which could explain why Capricorns have a tendency to take on SO MUCH on their own, even to the point of burning themselves out.
We Caps can be of the mindset, "It's all me or it's nothing." So much focus goes into the how, and where to, and what next that we can become detached from the emotion that sparked our dreams and goals in the first place.
So when our masculine sign visits the opposite sign of Cancer we have an opportunity get back in touch with our softer, feminine side. We get a chance to put our project(s) down for a minute and remember why we're so passionate about it in the first place. We can take off our shoes and dip our feet into the deep dream space where the love and desire for this goal was born.
When the moon is full, she is shining brightly and showing us what needs love and attention from us. You have probably heard the phrase along the lines of 'people get crazy during the full moon'. While it could hold some level of truth, the reality is that when the moon is full, there is a higher vibration of energy. Emotions, wounds, desires all come up to the surface and are being show to us because they are the things that require acknowledgement.
For me it was frustration with my work place. I came home angry last night, I wanted to throw up some fingers and tell them where they could go. So today before heading in I could feel that anger rising again and so I gave myself a nice smudge before I walked out the door. Today ended up being a much easier and a more pleasant day, and as I took my salt bath I realized what this full moon was showing me.
My frustration was being brought to my attention because I was getting frustrated with circumstances that I cannot control and I did not feel supported. I took a deeper look and was able to see that it was being reflected in one of my coworkers.
Let me just say I'm glad that I was sitting down because I was FLOORED. Literally FOR MONTHS, I have been trying to pinpoint why exactly this was manifesting in my life, and it all came to me. With the light of this full moon, I can see a part of myself reflected in this individual. I see patterns and behaviors that I myself have been guilty off. For such long time I could only see the flaws and mistakes this person was making, and all it did was make me angrier.
As all of this was dawning on me (no pun intended) I asked Spirit, I asked the Moon; What can I do to help heal this part of myself? The answer I received was so simple.
I could forgive myself.
As I tapped into the beautiful milky divine feminine, I asked to be shown more. We as humans are flawed by nature, because we are here to learn and to grow and the only way to do so is to make mistakes. I needed to be reminded that people, including myself, are allowed to make mistakes; that I have and that I will continue to do so. And that regardless of how many, or for how long, it should not, and does not lessen the value and worthiness of any individual.
We are able to go so far because of the mistakes that we make, not in spite of, but because of. Mistakes can be opportunities to launch us forward, or they can hold us captive, in one place for as long as we harbor the guilt and shame that we fabricate.
I can only speak for myself, but I am so thankful for every mistake that I have made because it helped me become who I am. Even now I find myself grateful to this person because they have shown me such a deep truth and have provided me with a chance to own that truth.
This is what my full moon in Capricorn is asking me to see, to acknowledge, to love and show compassion to, and then to finally send it with love and gratitude back to Source Energy, until the next lesson comes forward.
What is the Full Moon in Capricorn showing you?
Live freely and love fiercely,
How has this full moon been treating you? Have you been feeling it the last few days as the moon as reached her fullness?
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| Image from monderndayastrologer.com |
As some of you might already know, I am a Capricorn (sun), so this full moon holds some very serious energy for me. And possibly for you too! Are you ready for it?
One of the things that I love the most when the moon is full, is that I feel like I have the opportunity to really clean off my energetic plate. I get to drop all the stuff that I've been carrying around for the last month that just needs to go. It's a good time to reset, re-energize, reevaluate. It's also a good time to be super honest with ourselves.
Something that I think gets glossed over during the Full Moon, is the opportunity to see things in our lives with a fresh perspective, a different lens depending on what sign the moon is in. In this case, it's Capricorn.
For those who are unfamiliar with Capricorn, this sign is ruled by Saturn which is considered the Father of the zodiac; just as the Moon is considered the Mother of the zodiac which rules the sign of Cancer. As these signs are opposite each other, there is a call for balance when these two meet.
Capricorn is considered the 'hard knocks' planet, as Saturn is also known as the Karma Keeper, it's no surprise that Capricorns often wind up settling all sorts of karmic debt (positive and negative) during their life time. Because of the masculine energy surrounding Capricorn, they are often described as structured, practical, goal oriented, focused, etc.
The other side of that coin however can be viewed as: rigid, strict, obsessive, workaholic, etc. Capricorns are known for being stubborn, rivaling other signs in the zodiac, because once they set their minds on something, it's nigh impossible to get them off course.
Capricorns can also suffer from tunnel vision and expect everyone to be on board with their plans and ideas, which isn't always practical or possible. When this doesn't happen, they can be come agitated and continue about their way, even if they do so alone. Which could explain why Capricorns have a tendency to take on SO MUCH on their own, even to the point of burning themselves out.
We Caps can be of the mindset, "It's all me or it's nothing." So much focus goes into the how, and where to, and what next that we can become detached from the emotion that sparked our dreams and goals in the first place.
So when our masculine sign visits the opposite sign of Cancer we have an opportunity get back in touch with our softer, feminine side. We get a chance to put our project(s) down for a minute and remember why we're so passionate about it in the first place. We can take off our shoes and dip our feet into the deep dream space where the love and desire for this goal was born.
When the moon is full, she is shining brightly and showing us what needs love and attention from us. You have probably heard the phrase along the lines of 'people get crazy during the full moon'. While it could hold some level of truth, the reality is that when the moon is full, there is a higher vibration of energy. Emotions, wounds, desires all come up to the surface and are being show to us because they are the things that require acknowledgement.
For me it was frustration with my work place. I came home angry last night, I wanted to throw up some fingers and tell them where they could go. So today before heading in I could feel that anger rising again and so I gave myself a nice smudge before I walked out the door. Today ended up being a much easier and a more pleasant day, and as I took my salt bath I realized what this full moon was showing me.
My frustration was being brought to my attention because I was getting frustrated with circumstances that I cannot control and I did not feel supported. I took a deeper look and was able to see that it was being reflected in one of my coworkers.
Let me just say I'm glad that I was sitting down because I was FLOORED. Literally FOR MONTHS, I have been trying to pinpoint why exactly this was manifesting in my life, and it all came to me. With the light of this full moon, I can see a part of myself reflected in this individual. I see patterns and behaviors that I myself have been guilty off. For such long time I could only see the flaws and mistakes this person was making, and all it did was make me angrier.
As all of this was dawning on me (no pun intended) I asked Spirit, I asked the Moon; What can I do to help heal this part of myself? The answer I received was so simple.
I could forgive myself.
As I tapped into the beautiful milky divine feminine, I asked to be shown more. We as humans are flawed by nature, because we are here to learn and to grow and the only way to do so is to make mistakes. I needed to be reminded that people, including myself, are allowed to make mistakes; that I have and that I will continue to do so. And that regardless of how many, or for how long, it should not, and does not lessen the value and worthiness of any individual.
We are able to go so far because of the mistakes that we make, not in spite of, but because of. Mistakes can be opportunities to launch us forward, or they can hold us captive, in one place for as long as we harbor the guilt and shame that we fabricate.
I can only speak for myself, but I am so thankful for every mistake that I have made because it helped me become who I am. Even now I find myself grateful to this person because they have shown me such a deep truth and have provided me with a chance to own that truth.
This is what my full moon in Capricorn is asking me to see, to acknowledge, to love and show compassion to, and then to finally send it with love and gratitude back to Source Energy, until the next lesson comes forward.
What is the Full Moon in Capricorn showing you?
Live freely and love fiercely,
~Thealynn
Tuesday, July 4, 2017
The Power of Feelings
Hey there loves,
It's been a couple of years since I wrote on this day, and before sitting down to write this I decided to look back on what I had written two years back, which you can read here. Which I fully encourage you to do because I feel very much the same, even more strongly than I did before.
Over the last couple of months I have been working with a coach and we had our last session about a week ago, while I was enjoying it and felt like I was gaining a lot from it, I also felt like I need to slow down, and practice listening to my own higher self, and listening to Spirit as to what to do next.
I also thought about just sharing that post as a way to observe this day, but it felt like it lacked something that I couldn't quite place my finger on. So, I decided to ask Spirit what I should do.
The last time I sat down to write, I became a mouth piece for the Universal message and it felt good. I was able to get out of my own way and just flow with the words and the feelings and there have been few times when I have felt such clarity.
I closed my eyes and felt myself fall into my meditative state and I asked the silence and the stillness within that is my higher self, that is Spirit; How can I be of service today? What message can I share?
The answer surprised me, to say the least.
Before I share the message I received, I want to be clear that this is not just something for everyone besides myself, this message includes me very much. Hearing it from Spirit, I felt is so deep down inside because I knew it was something that I've needed to learn for a long time.
When we talk about how we would like things to be different, we often hold a picture of what that difference looks like, as humans we are very visual which can be a good and not so good thing. We objectify and sexualize objects and places and even ourselves. We have a visual definition on what 'beauty' is, and if it or we don't fit into that definition than we and the things are less than, the value is diminished.
We can get so caught up on how things and we ourselves look that we completely disregard the feelings we experience. To feel something, positive or negative, we have to look inside ourselves to find that emotion, and the reason behind it.
For example, when we see a beautiful sunset the colors and the clouds or lack there of, can absolutely contribute to the beauty we see. But what do we feel when we see a beautiful sunset?
The photo above is one that I took during my vacation in Hawaii five years ago. When I think back to that time, I was in the midst of one of the hardest times of my life, and being in Hawaii was a chance to remind myself that while I was saying good bye to one chapter of my life, a new one was waiting for me to begin. Those sunsets filled me with peace, and hope, and the promise of something so beautiful. There was release in those sunsets, there was purity, and the much needed ending to a harsh story. Those sunsets spoke to me so deeply because what I saw was my strength and resolve painted in those skies, the waves taking my pain and resentment and feelings of foolishness away with them.
As I listened to Spirit, it was made clear to me that having a visual is not inherently a bad thing, in fact it can be an extremely helpful tool. It's when we get stuck on what we want that change to look like, and when we completely ignore how that change will feel that we find ourselves struggling to make the change and to keep it.
Visually can be a helpful starting point, but it's just one piece of the puzzle. When we go to set our intentions, our goals, so much can be had by focusing on how that change is going to make us feel.
As today is Independence Day for my country, now more than ever it's hard to feel any sense of pride. More often than not I feel frustrated, I feel angry, I feel ashamed because I know that as a country we are better than what we are portraying.
There is so much happening in this world that gives us pause, that breaks our hearts, that can make us feel helpless. But we're not. We have the power to change anything and everything that we wish to. When we think about the things that we want to see change; from things that will help make this world a better place to what will helps us feel better about ourselves, we have a vision of what that will look like - but what does it feel like?
What does that healthy body feel like? What would you feel like without that pain that you carry? What would that success feel like? What emotion would come with that feeling of peace, and acceptance, and tolerance? What would that equality feel like? What emotion would occupancy that opportunity?
How do you want to feel about yourself, about your career, about your finances, about your country?
What good is change without passion, empowerment, and heart behind it?
It's about time we stop putting our feelings in the corner, and bring them into the circle of our work. Our feelings are what motivate us to do great things, and there is so much that can be accomplished.
Until next time,
~Thealynn
©2013-2017 Thealynn Oceanna Rosewolf
It's been a couple of years since I wrote on this day, and before sitting down to write this I decided to look back on what I had written two years back, which you can read here. Which I fully encourage you to do because I feel very much the same, even more strongly than I did before.
Over the last couple of months I have been working with a coach and we had our last session about a week ago, while I was enjoying it and felt like I was gaining a lot from it, I also felt like I need to slow down, and practice listening to my own higher self, and listening to Spirit as to what to do next.
I also thought about just sharing that post as a way to observe this day, but it felt like it lacked something that I couldn't quite place my finger on. So, I decided to ask Spirit what I should do.
The last time I sat down to write, I became a mouth piece for the Universal message and it felt good. I was able to get out of my own way and just flow with the words and the feelings and there have been few times when I have felt such clarity.
I closed my eyes and felt myself fall into my meditative state and I asked the silence and the stillness within that is my higher self, that is Spirit; How can I be of service today? What message can I share?
The answer surprised me, to say the least.
Before I share the message I received, I want to be clear that this is not just something for everyone besides myself, this message includes me very much. Hearing it from Spirit, I felt is so deep down inside because I knew it was something that I've needed to learn for a long time.
When we talk about how we would like things to be different, we often hold a picture of what that difference looks like, as humans we are very visual which can be a good and not so good thing. We objectify and sexualize objects and places and even ourselves. We have a visual definition on what 'beauty' is, and if it or we don't fit into that definition than we and the things are less than, the value is diminished.
We can get so caught up on how things and we ourselves look that we completely disregard the feelings we experience. To feel something, positive or negative, we have to look inside ourselves to find that emotion, and the reason behind it.
For example, when we see a beautiful sunset the colors and the clouds or lack there of, can absolutely contribute to the beauty we see. But what do we feel when we see a beautiful sunset?
The photo above is one that I took during my vacation in Hawaii five years ago. When I think back to that time, I was in the midst of one of the hardest times of my life, and being in Hawaii was a chance to remind myself that while I was saying good bye to one chapter of my life, a new one was waiting for me to begin. Those sunsets filled me with peace, and hope, and the promise of something so beautiful. There was release in those sunsets, there was purity, and the much needed ending to a harsh story. Those sunsets spoke to me so deeply because what I saw was my strength and resolve painted in those skies, the waves taking my pain and resentment and feelings of foolishness away with them.
As I listened to Spirit, it was made clear to me that having a visual is not inherently a bad thing, in fact it can be an extremely helpful tool. It's when we get stuck on what we want that change to look like, and when we completely ignore how that change will feel that we find ourselves struggling to make the change and to keep it.
Visually can be a helpful starting point, but it's just one piece of the puzzle. When we go to set our intentions, our goals, so much can be had by focusing on how that change is going to make us feel.
As today is Independence Day for my country, now more than ever it's hard to feel any sense of pride. More often than not I feel frustrated, I feel angry, I feel ashamed because I know that as a country we are better than what we are portraying.
There is so much happening in this world that gives us pause, that breaks our hearts, that can make us feel helpless. But we're not. We have the power to change anything and everything that we wish to. When we think about the things that we want to see change; from things that will help make this world a better place to what will helps us feel better about ourselves, we have a vision of what that will look like - but what does it feel like?
What does that healthy body feel like? What would you feel like without that pain that you carry? What would that success feel like? What emotion would come with that feeling of peace, and acceptance, and tolerance? What would that equality feel like? What emotion would occupancy that opportunity?
How do you want to feel about yourself, about your career, about your finances, about your country?
What good is change without passion, empowerment, and heart behind it?
It's about time we stop putting our feelings in the corner, and bring them into the circle of our work. Our feelings are what motivate us to do great things, and there is so much that can be accomplished.
Until next time,
~Thealynn
©2013-2017 Thealynn Oceanna Rosewolf
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